I’ve spent the last couple of weeks with my mind inundated on a person that I know was not God’s will for my life. Of course I thought if I prayed and continued to believe that God would “fix” the situation, and all things would work out for my good (Romans 8:28 ESV). It’s amazing how when desperation consumes us that we attempt to apply scripture to work for our benefit. I knew that scripture did not apply to my insanity, but I wanted there to be a light at the end of the tunnel. However, God seen totally different. The person I was dating decided he did not want a commitment, but expected for me to wait until he did. Since he was not ready to fully commit his life to God as I have, he didn’t agree with my standards. This rejection had me at a place that I was willing to compromise. Usually I consult God about everything, I never want to be out of His will. However, I was so overwhelmed with desire that I did not want to pray about it because I was not ready to face the truth.
One day I was sitting at my desk, and I could not focus! I felt like I was about to lose my mind. The thought of him was all that I could think of. “I can’t believe that he does not want to commit to me? I have everything going for myself, is he crazy! He’ll never find anyone like me. Maybe if I give him something he can feel, his mind will change.” I was thinking like a woman who was not saved by His grace. I was almost willing to turn my back on God to get what I felt was rightfully mine. The devil is a lie. We are Princesses of a King, and we never have to beg anyone to come nor stay! Anyway, as much as I did not want to pray about this, I did, I needed His strength in my very weak moment. Immediately after I cried out, I felt freedom as never before. The bondage was broke, and my blinded eyes were open. I compare this trial to a baby getting ready to touch a fire, and a parent rescuing them right before they get burnt. He not only pulled me out of the situation, He patted me on my tail and said “I pulled you out, now don’t go back.” When God removes you from a situation, you know it’s Him because there’s a sense of peace, and relief. The guy that I was communicating with no longer calls my phone or texts me, and I don’t’ have any desire to reach out to him. I’m thankful for God intervening as only He could. I am so, so grateful because there is no way that I could have done it on my own.
I am a very private person, but this experience was for God’s glory, and my good. So keeping it to myself was not an option. Ladies or gentlemen, if you are struggling in this area, please pray and believe. When I tell you that I feel liberated, it’s an understatement. I have cut relationships on my own, but to have God to do it is a different experience. He loves us that much to save us from harm. “And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. (1 Peter 5:10 ESV). My sincere prayer is that God will not allow anymore distractions in my life, I never want to go through this again!! It’s time to focus on His Kingdom, and not my desires. It’s easy to lose focus if your mind is not set on His purpose. “But seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you (Matthew 6:33 ESV). That’s a promise that He made to us, so let’s have faith, and trust that the mate that God has for us, He’ll add them in due season.
Please pray for me, and I’m praying for you :). I pray that my testimony will be a blessing to you. “No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and He will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation He will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it (1 Corinthians 10:13).
Talk to you soon!