I never thought I would lose the one person who molded my very being!! Anytime I would even think of God taking her home, I would cry like a baby, and I mean that ugly cry. She always told me “grandma ain’t going nowhere” and I knew that wasn’t possible but it was so much easier to believe her. She was my grandmother, rock, foundation, MOMMA, confidant, security and support since I was born. In my 43 years of life, she never left my side. When my mom was on drugs and my daddy was in prison, she humbly filled their shoes. The court system wanted to make me a statistic but Mattie Jean wasn’t having it.
Even-though she had epilepsy, and would have a seizure unexpectedly at any given moment, she never allowed anyone to place a handicap title on her and it didn’t slow her down. In fact, let me try to give her some BS excuse of why I couldn’t do this or that she would quickly remind me “if I can get up every morning and take care of you and me with these seizures, you better not sit here and complain about nothing” and eventually, I didn’t.
My wisdom and tenacity came from her. I had my first child at a very young age but I beat the odds. It wasn’t easy being a teen mom but it made me better and not bitter. I don’t look like where I came from and I thank God and Mattie Jean. I’m making it through this race called life with no excuses, no complaints and I WON’T give any BS excuse.
When she left me in body, I gained a deeper perspective on life and what’s important. It’s time that I complete all God has placed in me. I find great joy in helping others to be encouraged and uplifted. This is why I started Mink Kitty Coat, an organic vaginal company because this area is at the center of a woman’s being and if it’s all good, so is she. My grandma use to always say ”if you don’t take care of that thang, she’ll start talking.” Haha! Next, I’ll be opening Mattie’s Place of Love because when someone came to her home, no matter what their story was (drugs, mental illness, alcohol, homeless, ex-convict) they received the same truth, love and kindness. This home will offer everything that she gave to who God considers to be orphans and widows.
I’m building a legacy for her and our family because everything she has instilled in us will not be in vain.
God is never wrong and if you’re going through an extremely hard and difficult experience right now, just know there is a message in the hurt. If you look pass the pain, God has something for you to do and not just for you but the subsequent generation that needs your determination and influence. Find your why or God will for you.
– Mecca Lasha ❤️❤️
Sweetie, You Are Hella Amazing! 