Who Are You????

Please don’t pretend or deny that you didn’t ask yourself this very question at one point after getting married! No fibbing allowed on this site. It seems like as soon as you come home from the honeymoon, things start to change. You notice some unfamiliar behavior or habit that wasn’t introduced during the dating stage. My rude awakening was my dear sweet husband riding in his truck for hours whenever he had a free moment. Granted he was new to my city, so I kind of understood but I really didn’t. I love being home, don’t get me wrong, I enjoy going out on PLANNED outings but after a while, the world starts to make my skin crawl and I’m ready to get back to my safe haven. Well, I thought this was my husband too, he showed me and verbalized how he enjoyed being home too. NOT. I would call him from work to find out what he was doing and he would tell me he’s in an area 20 miles from home! What the heck! I would ask what’s his destination and his answer would be “Sweetie, I’m just riding.” Ummmm, no Bueno sir. I would say okay and let him continue his journey but my mind would be going in a thousand and one NEGATIVE directions! I hated it, and it was based on my own insecurities.

Truth no lie. I was scared! I felt like I was losing my husband slowly but for sure because I kept wondering if he was happy, or what in the world had his attention. I had zero understanding. After many conversations and nagging, I learned that my husband is introverted and he recharges by himself away from the normal routine. He had a lot of changes that happened in his life all at once (mom passed from cancer, new environment and new husband). I never considered that we deal with things differently. We are two types of introverts and I had to learn to accept him as he is and allow him space as well as privacy to deal with his thoughts. It wasn’t easy but with God, all things are possible. I had to first address my inner negative feelings and controlling behavior. Yep, I said controlling behavior. The first step to recovery is admittance right. I also learned to appreciate his individualism and I stopped trying to change him. Believe me, prayer played a huge role in my understanding because me, myself and I is a mess!

If you’re dealing with a similar situation, chill-out and ask yourself why you’re being affected by your “unique” partners behavior. If you wanted a robot, living life as one is going to be difficult. Would you like for someone to try and change who you are because they don’t understand or feel uncomfortable? I realize that marriage is a compromise but love also don’t demand it’s own way. I didn’t make that up, He said it. As long as it’s not a habit or behavior that’s causing harm to you or them, let it be.
Now, if it’s something that’s causing a lot of tension, resentment or your marriage is becoming unstable, talk about how their behavior makes you feel and lay it at God’s feet. Don’t pick it back up! Only God can change a heart, not you. He did it for me, so I know He’ll do it for you as well.
Love has in it no element of fear; but perfect love drives away fear, because fear involves pain, and if a man gives way to fear, there is something imperfect in his love. There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear has punishment. 1 John 4:18

To Win, You Can’t Be Afraid To Lose

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When you form a true love and appreciation for the person you are, you’ll never go above and beyond to please anyone just to keep them engaged. When we’re insecure, and lack confidence in the wonderful person God created us to be, we compromise ourselves and our happiness. We say yes, when the answer should be no. We conceal our true feelings in an effort to avoid conflict, we stop thinking logical and allow our emotions to rule and reign. We put the needs of others above our very own. All of these sacrifices only lead to resentment and unhappiness. What eventually happens is you create an unhealthy relationship with unrealistic expectations. The person is not interested in who you are but what you can do. And you can’t criticize what you’ve created!

Here’s the deal: the only way you’re going to keep a relationship is by not being afraid to lose it and knowing that life goes on if you do. When we hold on too tight to anything, we eventually get tired because it’s uncomfortable! And if you’re scared about someone leaving, you’re doing a lot (sexually, monetary, errands, embellishing the truth) because of fear and that means that your actions are not genuine. How long can you conceal your true feelings without eventually exploding or becoming needy? Not too long.

I’ve been that girl that fell in lust, (can’t say love) with a guy who kept me in limbo. Not knowing if we’re a couple or friends. It drove me insane, the agony of not knowing. I would give him all of the benefits of a WIFE and I wasn’t even his girlfriend. Until one day I discussed my issue with a very wise woman and she told me “if that man wanted you, you wouldn’t have to guess who you were in his life, he would be showing you.” I never gave him a chance to show me anything because I was too busy trying to be two steps ahead. I was exhausted! You hear me, exhausted from walking on eggshells. I had to let go to keep my sanity. I no longer cared about our status. Guess what eventually happened? You got it! He started holding on, and because I gave him too much of me, I was no longer interested in him. I resented him for making me wait too long. Lol.

If you’re holding on because of fear, believe me I understand. Just let go, and let things happen naturally. I know this is a cliche but what’s meant, will be. Fear will also steer your thoughts in the wrong direction, and have you second guessing yourself or over analyzing EVERYTHING. Spell it with me, T O R T U R E. It’s not worth it my love. I had to learn the hard way but you don’t.  Just chill and relax, and give Jesus the wheel because you can’t drive. Lol.

Love you immensely,

Mecca Lasha

Being Everything to Everyone


A wife, a mom, a daughter, a granddaughter, a sister, a grandmother and a friend. All of these roles wear a different hat, and how do you switch them up without offending or neglecting others?! Especially when you’re doing your best to be everything to everyone! My husband feels that I’m someone different when I have my mommy hat on, and I don’t see it and he can’t seem to explain it. It hurts my feelings every time that he makes that observation because I always want to be the same person at all times. Well, I prayed about this and God showed me that with the different roles, I can’t be the same because each person needs something different from you. My youngest daughter needs affirmation, my oldest daughter needs hugs & kisses, my grandma needs acts of kindness and my husband needs them all. Lol. And for half of my life, I’ve worn the mommy hat, so I feel somewhat a pro in that role but I’ve only worn the wife hat for a year! I’m still going through a learning process on how to maintain being the wife that he needs. Learning something new always has obstacles, bumps and bruises because it takes sacrifice and a lot of compromise. 

Ladies!!!! If didn’t have God to be everything to me, I would be a mess! There is no way to give what you don’t have but God has put everything on the inside of us to manage all roles. You must stay in CONSTANT communication with Him or one missed conversation could result in a heartfelt misunderstanding. We influence our love ones in a major way, so our hats play a major role in their lives; wear them with purpose and intention. I know it’s not easy but you got this! God said so :). 

1 Corinthians 9:22New International Version (NIV)

To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all people so that by all possible means I might save some.

Love you immensely! 

Mecca Lasha

Be Grateful In Your Current Status

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When I talk to my single friends they want to be married, and the married ones want to be single!!! My gosh, is anyone really content with their circumstances? For me as a single women there are times that I get lonely, and wonder when or if marriage is for me, again. I feel that I’m ready to be a wife and support the man that God has for me. However, I get really discouraged when I find myself counseling my married friends to remain faithful and steadfast. Are all marriages eventually tumultuous or displeasing? That just can’t be so! Somebody has to be happy!! Or is it that their perception of marriage is convoluted? Here’s the deal, I’m convinced that people expect the world to change once they say “I do.” It’s a misconception that marriage means “now you owe me something.” Therefore, when their spouse don’t live up to that expectation, disappointment evolves and resentment spreads like a wildfire!

Could it be that the unreasonable expectation of marriage is derived from being a selfish single person? Hmmmm. Based on the conversations that I have with the majority of my single friends, they’re all waiting for that one special person to come along and fill that emptiness inside. Most of them are also preparing for marriage as a sign of hope (wedding dress, venue, cake and their ideal wedding ring). I understand the bible tells us that we need to walk by faith and not by sight (2 Corinthians 5:7), but it also teaches us not to be anxious for anything ( Philippians 4:6). Therefore, when there are great expectations prior to the nuptials, it only intensifies when marriage becomes reality.

Whatever your status is, married or single, learn to be grateful and content. Marriage is about giving and not looking to receive. So don’t assume for one second that it’s easy. I know that’s a hard thought to swallow for some but it’s necessary to have a successful marriage. Singleness is a time to give God all of you. Yep, ALL of you and not just on Sunday. Both statuses are a ministry and ministry equals serving.

I’m preaching to the choir because my prayer today is that God help me to be content as a single woman, and teach me to give without expecting anything in return. That hasn’t always been my desire because I felt my ex-husband didn’t live up to my standards; therefore I divorced him. Now that I know better, I don’t plan to make that same mistake. No way!!!!

Please, please, please become whole with God, and have a heart to give without expectations before you consider getting married. This will prevent a lot of disappointments. Trust me.

God loves you & me too!

Mecca Lasha

Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. (‭Philippians‬ ‭4‬:‭11-13‬ NASB)

He Is Jealous For You

You love him so much. He’s the only guy that makes you feel a certain type of way. It’s different, right? When you wake up, he’s on your mind. Before you go to sleep, he’s on your mind. Oh let’s not forget you can see spending forever with him. You cook for him, wash his cloths, grocery shop and make his favorite dish. If he calls, you answer on the first or second ring. Your calendar is always open for him. There are no boundaries because he’s your man, and if you don’t another woman will, right? When it comes to love-making, he’s the best and no other man can compare. “No” is not a word that he hears from you because that’s your boo, right?

At times you feel like he takes you for granted. He don’t go out of his way for you, like you do for him, hmmm. Ambiguous! His words don’t quite align with his actions, but he’s trying, right? And don’t let him take forever to respond to your text or don’t answer your call. Your day is ruined and attitude is jacked! You can’t focus. But when you do finally hear from him, you’re on cloud nine, right?

How do I know all of this because I was that girl honey! I gave my “ALL” to someone who was not my husband. I made him number one in my life and he didn’t earn that position. I placed myself and others on the back burner while “I” pursued my hearts desire. Oh yes, I also placed him before God! Yep, I did. I made him an idol by placing him in God’s position. I knew I was wrong, I stopped spending time with God. My prayers became vague, drive by prayers “thank you Lord for another day.” Pitiful! There’s more to this story but the end results was this man cheated on me! Broke my heart into a million pieces. The pain was nothing I had ever experienced. I cried, questioned myself, resented him and lost 15 lbs from not eating! That actually was a good thing. Ha!

One day I was crying from my core and God told me “I am a jealous God, and you will have no other gods before me.” “Huh, what Lord?” I was confused. I wasn’t worshipping a statue or anything. Immediately, every situation that I placed this man before God flashed before my eyes. Astounded! I repented and made a promise to NEVER allow myself to ever repeat that mistake again. I gave him all of me, and now he’s gone but Jesus never left me. Wow! Nobody is worth His position; especially someone who didn’t make a vow to me. Technically he didn’t owe me faithfulness, and neither does your boyfriend. Truth hurts, I know.

I truly pray that my testimony helps someone because in the end that relationship that’s outside of God’s will is not going to evolve. However, it can change if you walk in obedience, and ask God to heal your fear of losing and being rejected. Because that’s the root of why a man would be placed on a pedestal before he has earned that position. Now, think ladies, who would you prefer being separated from? Man or God? The choice is yours.

May God bless and lead you always!

Mecca Lasha

You must worship no other gods, for the LORD, whose very name is Jealous, is a God who is jealous about his relationship with you. Exodus 34:14 NLT

Our Love Is Selfish and Futile

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Recently God has been dealing with me about my expectations of others, and how I demonstrate love. It was a harsh reality, but hey when God is ready to change your heart, it’s an honor. A really good friend of mines mom was diagnosed with breast cancer, and of course it’s been really hard for him. A few days prior to her condition being confirmed he expressed needing my support, and asked if I could come visit (4 hour drive). I was ecstatic because I felt he needed me, therefore, I made tentative arrangements. Well, a day before I was due to arrive, he called and told me that he’ll let me know when it’ll be a good time for me to come because this was not the right time. My feelings were crushed. I had so many negative thoughts going through my mind “How dare he deny me the option to be there for him, and I’m the one willing to drive out of my way to allow him the pleasure of crying on my shoulder.” I guess you can tell from my reaction that this is not “just a friend.” If it was, I would’ve accepted the change of plans, without any 2nd thought, and waited for his call to reschedule.

Sometimes I can think too hard, and be vocal about my feelings, so I’ve vowed to myself that I will never let anyone but God see me sweat. If I have an issue, I talk to Him about it, and I wait for His response. In the middle of my complaining, I hear “love does not demand its own way.” Immediately I begin to cry because I was not considerate of my friend’s crisis; I was more concerned with feeling rejected. I made his decision to cancel about me, and not him. That was demanding my own way. God then replayed more situations similar to this, and I was ashamed!! There have been so many times in my life that I have only thought about me, and not the needs of others, or God’s will for that matter.  

If I can learn to walk in God’s love, it will diminish all my fears, and keep me in His will. I’m taking things one day at a time, but my desire for the New Year above all else is to allow Him to occupy the space in my heart that rightfully belongs to Him. I’ve lived my life to the fullest (LOL), and now it’s time for Him. Without Him, I am nothing, but with Him, I am everything.

Happy New Year Everyone!

Faith or Fear

It’s been awhile since I’ve written anything, but life has become hectic! However, in the midst of my chaos I met a man, and he demonstrates all of the attributes that I’ve prayed for. We met the old-fashioned way, in a grocery store. He approached me like a gentleman, and to make a long story short, we’re now dating. And get this, he does not want to be intimate until marriage. Jackpot! I told God that in order for me to remain celibate, I need a man who understands and respects my choice to walk in obedience. I’m just being honest! Now one might say,” girl you have found the perfect mate, Boaz”, but I don’t know about that because I don’t feel a bit of attraction for him. When he touches me I cringe, literally. Maybe because he’s fifteen years older than me, and a little on the soft side. Instead of him watching football, he would prefer a love story.

I also observed how he treats other people, and he’s a little on the mean side. He also expressed to me that as a child, nobody ever demonstrated love to him, a very challenging childhood. So the reason he loves hard, and sometimes loses himself in relationships is because he’s looking for reciprocation. That is a red flag for me because I think his behavior is not genuine, but a façade to mask the hurt. Am I over analyzing things because of my fear of marrying the wrong person, and being stuck? Is it discernment or skepticism?

Some cultures arrange marriages, and it’s obvious these are not always perfect matches. They’re not instantly in love, but they eventually fall in love. Are these people happy, or just tolerant? I have never allowed a relationship to progress if there was no chemistry or connection. However, that was before Christ. I want to believe this was a divine connection, but how do I know that for sure? Am I walking in fear or faith?

God Blocked It!!!!

I’ve spent the last couple of weeks with my mind inundated on a person that I know was not God’s will for my life. Of course I thought if I prayed and continued to believe that God would “fix” the situation, and all things would work out for my good (Romans 8:28 ESV). It’s amazing how when desperation consumes us that we attempt to apply scripture to work for our benefit. I knew that scripture did not apply to my insanity, but I wanted there to be a light at the end of the tunnel. However, God seen totally different. The person I was dating decided he did not want a commitment, but expected for me to wait until he did. Since he was not ready to fully commit his life to God as I have, he didn’t agree with my standards. This rejection had me at a place that I was willing to compromise. Usually I consult God about everything, I never want to be out of His will. However, I was so overwhelmed with desire that I did not want to pray about it because I was not ready to face the truth.

One day I was sitting at my desk, and I could not focus! I felt like I was about to lose my mind. The thought of him was all that I could think of. “I can’t believe that he does not want to commit to me? I have everything going for myself, is he crazy! He’ll never find anyone like me. Maybe if I give him something he can feel, his mind will change.” I was thinking like a woman who was not saved by His grace. I was almost willing to turn my back on God to get what I felt was rightfully mine. The devil is a lie. We are Princesses of a King, and we never have to beg anyone to come nor stay! Anyway, as much as I did not want to pray about this, I did, I needed His strength in my very weak moment. Immediately after I cried out, I felt freedom as never before. The bondage was broke, and my blinded eyes were open. I compare this trial to a baby getting ready to touch a fire, and a parent rescuing them right before they get burnt. He not only pulled me out of the situation, He patted me on my tail and said “I pulled you out, now don’t go back.” When God removes you from a situation, you know it’s Him because there’s a sense of peace, and relief. The guy that I was communicating with no longer calls my phone or texts me, and I don’t’ have any desire to reach out to him. I’m thankful for God intervening as only He could. I am so, so grateful because there is no way that I could have done it on my own.

I am a very private person, but this experience was for God’s glory, and my good. So keeping it to myself was not an option. Ladies or gentlemen, if you are struggling in this area, please pray and believe. When I tell you that I feel liberated, it’s an understatement. I have cut relationships on my own, but to have God to do it is a different experience. He loves us that much to save us from harm. “And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. (1 Peter 5:10 ESV). My sincere prayer is that God will not allow anymore distractions in my life, I never want to go through this again!! It’s time to focus on His Kingdom, and not my desires. It’s easy to lose focus if your mind is not set on His purpose. “But seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you (Matthew 6:33 ESV). That’s a promise that He made to us, so let’s have faith, and trust that the mate that God has for us, He’ll add them in due season.

Please pray for me, and I’m praying for you :). I pray that my testimony will be a blessing to you. “No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and He will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation He will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it (1 Corinthians 10:13).

Talk to you soon!

L.W.

Your past is a blessing, not a curse!!

Philippians 3:13
“Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before.”

Girlfriend, please stop allowing your past dictate your future! You may have had a challenging child hood that you are too embarrassed to discuss, or even an abusive marriage. You may not believe this but because of what you had to endure made you the strong person that you are today. Use it as a stepping stool to your future, and by no means allow it to negate you from advancing forward in life. The enemy comes to steel, kill and destroy. If he could, he would stunt your growth by using your past as a weapon.

We as women will allow ourselves to feel inadequate and unworthy because of where we came from. Afraid to love someone whose background does not look like ours and we wonder why we keep getting the same negative results when it comes to a relationship. It’s a comfort zone, and we find it easier to settle than to expect what we deserve. Once you let go of past regrets, and realize that your steps were order for whatever road you have to take, then you’ll have a clear understanding of what you deserve, happiness. Tribulation was only allowed to make you strong. Use that strength to make wise decisions.

Once upon a time, I only accepted men whom were either from low income households (I’m just saying) or either less educated, because they looked like where I came from. The only thing I received from these men was a low credit score and a broken heart! Unfortunately, I accepted this treatment because I didn’t know or want any better. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not stereo typing anyone because those were my circumstances, I’m only making the point that you get what you feel you deserve. Anytime I dated anyone outside of what I was familiar with, I would not have any attraction to that man. He would either be too nice or intimidating. If he wasn’t defined as a bad guy, I didn’t have any clue on how to relate! Now that I look back, I was a mess! Thank God for second chances!

Since I know and respect who I am today; I know exactly what I want and deserve. It feels so good to have some reasonable “GODLY” standards! The God in me will not accept someone that is not in agreement with who I am trying to become. I say trying, because I am a work in progress. My Pastor preached a profound message today on this very subject and the one thing that I must share is this: “instead of trying to find the one, focus on becoming the one that you want to attract.” You have work to do ladies, so get to it! Relinquish your past and embrace today and tomorrow.

Ladies you maybe single because of your attitude!

I received a harsh reality from a few single Kingdom men about their biggest turn off in women. It’s not because of a woman’s job, weight, education, bank account or children from a previous relationship, it’s a woman’s bad attitude!!! I never realized that it was this serious but I was informed that it’s a deal breaker. When a man is looking to make a woman his wife; the biggest determining factor is how that woman makes him feel as a man. If a woman is rude, belligerent or disrespectful, that’s an automatic red flag that he’s not looking for her to remain in his life long-term. Who would consider spending their life with someone who has a bad attitude? He’ll always feel defeated about keeping this woman happy. Now I can hear it already “I don’t have a bad attitude, I just tell a man exactly how it is without sugar-coating it. I will not accept any kind of behavior from a man and nobody is going to run all over me.” I use to say the same things before I realized that being confidant and contentious is like comparing apples and oranges. It’s okay to set boundaries, say no and tell someone how you feel about a situation but like your mother always told you, “It’s not what you say, it’s how you say it.” God said a gentle answer turns away wrath but a harsh word stirs up anger. (Proverbs 15:11 NASB).

I am the first to admit that I have made some horrible mistakes on my love journey that I am not proud of. From disregarding a man’s feelings and making him feel like the gum on the bottom of my shoe! Of course a man won’t tell you that his ego is bruised, instead it shows in his behavior. He withdraws emotionally and even physically at times. If he feels like everything that he does is wrong, he’ll stop trying. If you don’t believe what I am saying, God confirms it in His word. It is better to dwell in a corner of the housetop [on the flat oriental roof, exposed to all kinds of weather] than in a house shared with a nagging, quarrelsome, and fault-finding woman. (Proverbs 21:9 AMP)

I know firsthand that a bad attitude is a direct reflection of anger and bitterness that a woman accumulates from bad relationships, personal insecurities, low self-esteem or a challenging childhood. I get that, I promise I do, but there has to come a point in your life that you face those issues head on and take the necessary steps to resolve whatever it is that has you angry. If not, a lot of your relationships will be severed and not to mention the possible health risk! Once you accept that there are underlying issues and identify the root cause, please address it! It’s a wonderful feeling once you are finally free. So when he reschedule your time together or skips a day or two of calls; it will not phase you. But let me say this my dear, if you have a confidant and optimistic attitude, he won’t be cancelling dates or missing calls, trust me!!! R.E.S.P.E.C.T is all that he wants to receive from you and he’ll reciprocate if you give it. Girlfriend, put away your sling-blade tongue that cuts him up and down when he steps outside of your precious expectations. Show him that sweet, warm and meek side of you and watch him transform into the man that he ultimately wants to be for you. There is a king and a fool in every man; speak to the one that you want to respond.

Proverbs 31:26 NASB
She opens her mouth in wisdom,
And the teaching of kindness is on her tongue.

Ecc 7:9 NASB
Do not be eager in your heart to be angry,
For anger resides in the bosom of fools.

Proverbs 14:29 NASB
He who is slow to anger has great understanding,
But he who is quick-tempered exalts folly.