His Pain Before Purpose

Chile, where do I start when explaining the woman that I was before marriage #2. I thought I was everything a man would love to have. Sis!!! Checklist was in order! Boom, bam, bing!……But what I found myself attracting was men who expected me to “hold-them-down.” Which I did because I was always told, “if you don’t another woman will.” Uh un, I was not going to be blinded by the infamous clean-up woman. I wanted to be that woman with no competition and the one a man would hate to see walk away. Honey, I always put my best foot forward, well that’s what I thought I was doing, but when God got a hold of my behind, this is what he revealed that I was bringing to the table:

▪️My good credit, that I used to persuade men.

▪️My nice size butt, that I used to entice men.

▪️My beautiful home, that I used to house men.

▪️My high paying job, that I used to impress men.

▪️My nice bank account, that I used to buy men.

So as you see, we can think we’re giving a man our very best but at the end of the day, it could be a bunch of shallow stuff because we believe those are the things that are attracting attributes……and then we feel disappointed and hurt when we end up in debt financially, damaged emotionally, drained mentally and used sexually.

This was my story until I turned to God for answers because I was tired of coming out of relationships feeling depleted. I knew it was me because I was the common denominator.

My first marriage was a hot mess because I didn’t know what it meant to be a wife outside of being superficial and I didn’t want to repeat the same behavior. 🙅🏾‍♀️

I’ve heard that you should be careful when you ask God for something specific because you never know how the answer will come. Girrrrlllll…. He took me, broke me and restored me for the husband He had for me. Man, what I thought was pure punishment, had a purpose.

That butt that I had, deflated after I lost 30lbs. I lost my job, car and my home, so there went my credit. Oh my bank account was in the negative….because I had so much pride in my status, I didn’t ask anybody for help. Those guys vanished because I had nothing more to give!

I spent 4 years with God getting to know who He created me to be….not what I created me to be. When I say that I was literally unraveled y’all, it was layer-by-layer and it was painful but it all worked for my good and His glory. 😖

I have so much more to share, so look for the next blog about how I got over and through, hahaha….be blessed, talk to you soon.

⁃ Mecca Lasha ❤️❤️

9 likewise also that women should adorn themselves in respectable apparel, with modesty and self-control, not with braided hair and gold or pearls or costly attire, 10 but with what is proper for women who profess godliness—with good works.

1Timothy 2:9-10